Tuesday, December 11, 2007

it's been a while.

i realise, it's been a while since i blogged, or written anything of meaning, anyway, and so here i am, ready to pour out my distinctly complicated emotional patterns into a rambling, emotionally overwrought piece of prose that will confound the pragmatic, frustrate the cynical, and very much annoy the skeptical.

not really. :p

geoffrey says that i only blog or get in contact with people when something's wrong, and here's proof to the contrary! i am not:
a) unnecessarily emotionally charged, reading too much into situations and/or dwelling on things that cannot be altered.
b) necessarily traumatised and/or worried, although my dwindling financial situation should be something to be traumatised and/or worried about.
c) completely numb, although in which case i wouldn't have anything to say about the matter anyway.

the truth of the matter is, life is.. alright. it's.. pleasant enough. there isn't many ups or downs, but somehow there's always something somewhat buried beneath the surface that continually comes up to bug me. i realised i just used three "some"s in the past sentence, which has to be the most vague illustration of anything ever. bah. in any case-- there's just something intrinsically.. wrong with the situation. i'm sure everyone has felt a bit like that before.. i'm not precisely UNhappy. just not particularly.. joyous. and although that may be the typical situation for most people, i generally like to think that i'm a normally happy person, and thus this vague LACK of complete and utter joy and ecstacy is a bit.. worrying. haha! but i'm just whining now, and i've said i won't whine during this post. so the whining shall cease.

it's eight days till i get to return homeeeee!! :) and although that does make me feel significantly better [i have been ridiculously homesick this term], there are things back in york that i feel like i'm leaving behind. and i'd better remind myself to tell my employer i'm going home. hmmm. :P fairly important point that i have completely forgotten up till this very moment; putting it in writing = first step to remembering it. haha!

anyway, i've not really got much to say but.. well, looking forward to christmas, and to seeing everyone again!

ciao.